Life IS a bed of roses...

Good bye my fren

2007-06-20T01:31:00.000+08:00

I wun make anymore entries on my blog.... take care my fren, thks for listening to me and lending me a shoulder when there's no one else to do so...

The Last Good Bye

2007-06-20T00:51:00.000+08:00

That day........

That day we kissed for the camera

That day u told me the story of the Grand Prix, u told me u looked ugly, I tot you are the best looking guy tat moment

That day I tot I will spend many birthdays with you

That day I saw alot of love for me in ur eyes in this pic

That day I am the happiest gal on earth when u booked out from camp the very 1st time

That day I am angry coz the sun only comes out when we were leaving

That day it feels so good to have the sea, the wind and you

That day we went to the Simgapore Discovery Centre

That day u get ur uniform and asked me if DHL will ask u to model fr them

That day u brought me on a mystery adventure to nature

That day u went clubbing with me though u are sick

That day is ur 2nd day in DHL, where u say u worked for my sake

These are the "that days" that will nv come again.....

Bring me back my sunshine

2007-06-07T16:41:00.000+08:00

And I thought finally the sun is shining for me...

You wun be there

2007-06-07T11:42:00.000+08:00

Would you be there
Redwan Ali
If I were blue, would you be there for me
And whisper in my ears that's ok
Would you stand by me
Let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender loving care
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
And never look back
Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there
If i will wait, would you still think of me
And wished that you could hold me now
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
All the way
Would you be there to love to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To kiss my pain away?
Would you be there..(for me)

Sweetness from Once Upon A Time...

2007-06-07T10:10:00.000+08:00

Sweetness from Once Upon A Time...

To: Baby Girl at starlit_05@yahoo.com.sg
From: Derrick Vennard at derrickvennard@hotmail.com

Love u baby and as u lay in bed feeling maybe stupid me still on the com playing games its actually cause im reading poems tats best for u and is closest to my heart..i cant wait to see u on monday because although im not gone yet im already missing you.

Yes, I love you...

http://www.passionup.com/fun/fun100.htm?e=starlit%5f%30%35%40yahoo%2ecom%2esg&f=derrickvennard%40hotmail%2ecom&h=45069308205a7983&confirm=1

Nightmare

2007-06-07T01:15:00.000+08:00

Will I wake up tomorrow morning and everything is just a mere nightmare?

Is this all fate wants to bring to us?

2007-05-20T22:48:00.001+08:00

Hw many times in life can you find some1 who truly loves you?
Some1 who loves you even though you are super stubborn, with a big missy temper
Some1 who wants to be in your presence regardless of hw ur mood is for every single day possible
Some1 who protects you, speaks up for you and fights for your rights
Some1 who will do any silly stuff just to get ur smile and kisses
Some1 who only wish for you to be happy no matter wat
Some1 who has nothing much to offer and yet tries to give you everything
Some1 who accepts you for who you are

But I almost gave it all up, only when itz that close to being lost then I realized how everything is so important to me, how he is so important to me, and I will regret all my life if it becomes history like this. Hope itz not too late now, to try and make it better, to put more effort into making it work.

Just because I love him and he loves me, more than alot.

Today

2007-05-19T11:30:00.000+08:00

What we seems to forget...

Today I looked into your eyes and saw

Today I reached into my heart and saw

Today I heard the soul shattered

Why the rain can stop me...

Because you are the reason

Because you are worth it

Because you love me

2007-05-09T15:52:00.000+08:00

This is the month of happiness

but why do I somehow feel a hint of sadness?

I should be blissful

but why do I somehow feel a little tearful?

Do we belong or juz trying to prolong?

My Love Song

2007-04-27T12:54:00.000+08:00

Your Love Song Is

Yellow by Coldplay
"Look at the stars,Look how they shine for you,And everything you do,Yeah they were all yellow"
You're so in love, it's like a drug.

'>http://ynr.blogthings.com/whatlovesongareyouquiz/">
What Love Song Are You?

I am a Natural Flirt

2007-04-26T18:18:00.000+08:00

You Are a Natural Flirt

Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt.And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting.Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt.And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive!

'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofflirtareyouquiz/">

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

38z Gathering - 25 April 2007

2007-04-25T23:54:00.000+08:00

38z Gathering - 25 April 2007

WOW, been almost 3 -4 mths since I last saw my 38z, the last time is on my bday bbq, even then, I dun really hv time to sit down and chat with them....

So we arranged to meet up at 1 of our fav places, Xiao Bao Steamboat. :) But increased price already, from $12 - $12.80...like WTH?! But I simply heart the luncheon meat and fuzhou fishballs there, xx was like saying we do steamboat very simple, just give us some veg, luncheon meat and fuzhou fishballs, and we are 2 happy bunnies...lol...too bad Ni Ni is missing...

Dia Dia reached abit later coz she had to go to her office to attend a meeting 1st, and it was raining by the time she rushed down by cab... but nevertheless, we had a great time, albeit short...no choice, we busy ppl ma...

After gorging at the steamboat, we still went to hv dessert at Ah Qiu... soooo sinful, nvm la, itz rainy, so eat more to keep warm...*wat a lame exuse*

After that, the 4 of us went to take Neoprints, wow, I SUPER DUBER suaku lor, I din know that Neoprints nowadays so happening one...gt platform, can move up and down one, and gt fan, can switched on, then gt the makeover feel with wind blowing in your faces... like WOW!!!

Muz Muz Muz drag my bee bee to go take with me 1 of these days... *cheeky grin*

'Ight, itz late, itz raining, itz time for my warm bed....yawns...

Misc

2007-04-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

Misc Updates

Me and baby went to watch Phantom of the Opera on Staurday, 21st April 2007, wow, so sophiscated hor...keke...no la, both of us love to watch performance, and even though the tixs we paid $324 altogether, but I supposed the whole experience are worth it. My cute baby was like "nice hor. nice hor, I enjoyed it" all the way...

And my dear can cancel another item off the list already, "watch a performance"...(hehe, baby says I gt too many activities and things that I wanna do, so ask me to draw up a list then we can do 1 by 1 and then I wun scold him for nt keeping his promise when he forgets, coz hor every time i see him, i gt something new that I will pester him to do)

But hor, me and my bee nv take any pictures that night though we both wear nice nice, bee wear shirt wor.. coz we forgot to take camera and we both shy to ask ppl take pic for us with handphone.. :P

After that we went to Zouk to meet Darren, and I so lucky, gt 2 guys to help me jump to reach the ballons that are floating at the ceiling...I almost made them get from other gals...wahaha...

In the end I had 3 ballons, a round one, a heart shaped one and a star one.

Kit Kat is a lucky lil (ok, old) gal...:)

Bangkok Trip 22 to 25 Mar 2007

2007-04-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

Bangkok Trip 22 to 25 Mar 2007 (sawadee ka....hehe, ya, again)

Super outdated entry again... coz no time to upload pictures, even now still incomplete...hehe...nvm la, I lazy to type...see pics hor..

My mummy call her the Siao Cha Bo.... me and this crazy lady b4 boarding Air Asia...

Adel, Regina and Kit Kat on the bus transfer to the main airport area....(on the extreme left hand is Adel's mum, very extra hor...kekeke)

Damage for the 1st night, we reached Bkk and checked in at abt evening time...the rest of the days never take, coz may cause heart attack to non-shoppers...lol...(meaning, my bee bee, see I am considerate to a certain extent)

After breakie and waiting for the rest of the gang...in case u tink we hv gone nuts, we are actually trying to imitate the small ceramic tile behind us...

Ok, finally the 2 gals finished their crazy streak, and sit down to take pics with the mums...

Trying to play police and thief....nah, we gt nothing to do at airport b4 boarding to go home

Momo. Kit Kat, Jie Jie, and Adel

Mummie, Kit Kat, Jie Jie and Momo

Kit Kat and her cute cute mummy...

To be continued folks.....

RP Powers

2007-04-23T08:15:00.000+08:00

RP Powers

Never Look Back

2007-04-20T23:06:00.000+08:00

Never Look Back

A bunch of mid-20s gt tired of working for ppl, long hours, getting standard pay which is only enuf to take home and career path far from sight.

One day 3 years ago, the drive to work for ourselves created RecruitPlus Consulting, why Recruit"Plus", coz inspiration is derived from the fashion label, PepperPlus. Why recruitment, coz low start up costs and equipments, and good profit margins.

Started from scratch, all the directors making cold telemarketing, at one time, my calling list has about 500+ companies, big and small.

There was a time when there's no salary, there was a time when i din buy new clothes for a long long while, there was a time when we had only $200 just for food and transport, we had to count hw much to spend on lunch everyday, there was a time when we had to do office cleaning, air-con servicing ourselves, the first time we get $1000 as our pay, I was so happy, I bought crabs for my family and a $50 Myphosis sandals fr myself.

There was a time when I laugh, there was a time when I got angry, there was a time when I cry, there was a time when debts are piling sky high, there was a time when I am super motivated to be at work even with a pathetic allowance, with no money in the company bank account, and none in mine.

And now the time have changed, head count have grown, people came and went, office have relocated, I choose to move on, it may or may nt be a good time, but when is a good time? The pastures may or may nt be greener at the other side of the fence, but I still want to go and take a look, while I am still able to.

RecruitPlus is my home, it contains all our dreams and hopes of youth, of the desire of a better life, itz part of who and what I am today.

Bye my home. Thanks for everything during this very special 3 yrs of my life.

Time of Our Life

2007-04-20T22:40:00.000+08:00

Time of Our Life

Got this from Regina's blog.... what a timely entry....

There's a time 4 us 2 let go...There's a time 4 holding on...A time 2 speak, a time 2 listen...There's a time 4 us 2 grow...There's a time 4 laying low down...There's a time 4 getting high...A time for peace, a time 4 fighting...A time 2 live, a time 2 die...A time 2 scream, a time 4 silence...A time 4 truth, against the lie...A time 4 faith, a time 4 science...There's a time 4 us 2 shine...There is a time 4 mixed believing...There's a time 2 understand...A time 4 hurt, a time 4 healing...A time 2 run, & 2 make a stand...

This is the time of our lives

Myself

2007-04-17T17:57:00.000+08:00

Karthy OngJanuary/05/1980

Female

You are Orange Sheep, who is quiet sort, and is a touchable person.

But you possess feminine attraction as well.

This may seem like flirting to fellow women, and may be misunderstood by men.

You are a sociable, but tend to keep a distance from people, and will not show your real emotions and feelings easily.

Although you are modest, you are a proud person as well.

You don't apologize or yield to things.

You have great tactics to make others take in your demand, without them realizing taht they are doing so.

You are extremely good at negotiating and bargaining.

You tend to feel isolated, and in order to overcome that loneliness, you have lots of interests.

You have sharp eyes, and can make your ideals come true by effectively adopting other people's expectations.

Although you lack leadership sort of action, you have perseverance to take up any challenge.

You can also use money efficiently, and therefore you are a shrewd shopper.

You are good at catching the heart of men.

You will be liked by different type of people. But this may give them false idea, and cause misunderstanding.

Although you may take men lightly, once married, you will become a devoted wife and a mother.

http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki1.php

Misc

2007-03-21T13:23:00.000+08:00

Miscellaneous Updates

1) Black ring found, on the bed, most obvious place, slept for 2 nights on same bed nv see, everyone says they din find it and put it there, it just appeared out of the blue like tat. Strange.... very strange...but I said thank you to St Anthony.

2) Sat - went Wild Wild Wet for the 1st time in my life (dun laff at me) with Bee Bee and Darren, nt many rides, place nt very big, but overall the 3 of us had fun, with the waves pool, water slides, plus the kiddo bicycle ride and the big float thingy...

3) Sun - wanted to go shopping at Salvation Army, drive to the Diary Farm Road one from East Coast then found out Sundays not open. Since itz near CCK, Bee Bee, his mummy, Auntie Angela and me, we went to Farmart for shopping, hee, ya lor, go Farmart also can shop, gt bottled bird nest on promotion, gt dogs, birds, fishes, goats to see, watch ppl catch prawns. We also drive to the other farms nearby, veg farms, Qian Hu fish farm, etc. Finally settled down at AMK for crab dinner... (sinful :P)

My Black Ring LOST!

2007-03-18T02:29:00.000+08:00

My Black Ring LOST!

Dun noe hw, but itz gone. Upset, very.

Feels like some part of me is missing. Wore it everyday for some time ardy, when baby's nt ard, itz my reminder of him and my companion, coz itz our couple ring....

Baby's says pray to St Anthony if gt missing things, but I dun pray, told him to pray ardy. Hope can find.

Life is all about ASS!

2007-03-15T02:06:00.000+08:00

Horrifying Stay at the Mount Elizabeth Hospital

2007-03-07T12:03:00.000+08:00

Horrifying Stay at the Mount Elizabeth Hospital
28 Feb 2007 - 1 March 2007

Been having tonsils problem for years, always have sore throat and infection, last year even have a serious bout of infection with uber high fever (38.9 degrees cel) that left me bedridden for about a week.
So it chanced that I was seeing this nose, ear, throat specilaist for a cyst on my ear, and he mentioned that my tonsils is quite big and is obstructing my breathing during sleeping, then I started to seriously consider removing it surgically, more for improvement of quality of life.

But I am quite scared actually, never stay overnight in a hospital on my own before, they do not allow anyone staying with you, and my baby in camp, cannot be with me, so doubly scared. =_="

When they put the patient tag on and ask me to lie on the trolley to push me into the operating theater, with the lights flashing past above me, I realised 1 very important thing, health is more than anything in the world. It really is.

After that, they put some gadgets on my heart to monitor heartbeat, blood pressure and stuff, and another injection, and I am knocked out. The last scary part is on the table where they will do all the cutting.

My operation is at 3.30pm till ard 5pm. I was still drowsy from the general anathestic at abt 7pm when my mum came, I can only communicate to her using writing...lol, so troublesome nt to be able to talk. SUPER DUBER PAINFUl for the 1st 3 days.

After my mum left and I was abt to drift off to sleep, my baby and his family turned up...hehehe, he went to seek special permission to come out to visit me for a while, all the way from his camp in Old Choa Chu Kang Road to Orhard Road to see me then back again.... Awww... my baby so sweet! And he brought flowers and our "children" to keep me company for the rest of the time I am there, my fav - brownie, and his fav - turtle, yes, tatz turtle in the pic with me...

Your My Angel

2007-02-25T21:21:00.000+08:00

While sitting on the same chair with him and playing Neopets (hehe) together, he said that this song is for me....

You're My Angel

Looking in to your eyesI see all I want to be

And I don't want it to end

If I could only put two words the way I see you

I only know I had an angel with me now

And when I fall asleep, you're all that I see

You're in my thoughts and all of my prayers

I wish I could be all that you mean to me

My angel without wings

My angel

I wish you could see all that you mean to me

But I could never find the words to tell you

And when I fall asleep, you're all that I see

You're in my thoughts and all of my prayers

I wish I could be all that you mean to me

And when I fall asleep, you're all that I see

You're in my thoughts and all of my prayers

I wish I could be all that you mean to me

My angel without wings

Happy Valentines' Day 2007

2007-02-14T12:40:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day 2007

Letter to Baby:

This year I hv no flowers

This year I have no pressies

This year I have no surprises

This year I have no chocs nor poems

But this year, I have you to call my own

And deep down, I know this is enough

Presently, we are going through a not-so-smooth patch in our r/s, my mood swing is like a roller coaster everyday, shooting up and rock bottom like nobody's business.

Our issues may be less significant to you, but they do carry more weight to me.

But I dun wanna give up yet, I remembered asking you once, what you said to me, I will always keep in mind, "every r/s at any point in time will always have their ups and downs, and when it is down, its up to the 2 person to bring it up again."

Itz easy to fall in love, but itz a challenge to STAY in love...

Choice

2007-02-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

I made a choice, I hope itz a right one

I took a risk, I prayed itz a worthy one

If 1 kilometres is too far away,

then look at the next centimetre or even milimetre,

and try to make it as beautiful as it can be while it last.....

I dun wanna grow up!

2007-02-08T08:14:00.000+08:00

I dun wanna dun wanna dun wanna grow up!

It isnt fun at all!

Please God, let me go back to the time when I was a kid...

Happy Birthday Baby Boy!

2007-02-07T11:20:00.000+08:00

Happy 20th Birthday My Baby Boy!

Yippeee Yippeeee!

Hehe, I think I am happier than him coz finally he gt a "2" in front of his age already... wahaha...

Wish you lotz of health and wealth,

as well as lotz of luck and love!

Stay as irritating and annoying as you are, coz that makes you who you are (but not to me though...gagaga)

LOVE

2007-02-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

Haven blog in a while....

L - iving
O - n
V - ery
E - dge

When you love a person, giving your all, itz like living on the very edge of life,
you'll get vulnerable,
you'll get selfish,
you'll get possessive,
you'll laugh at the smallest things,
you'll smile at the slightest thought of that person,
you'll get all high and all low, with only a few words, or a look or a touch,
you'll get all kinds of extreme silly emotions which you cannot begin to explain why.

But is love really all we need?
Is it enough for every hurdle in front of the path?
What if we need to wait a long long time for something intanglible? Something which may not even come at the end of the day?
Who will tell us if it is worth it or nt?
What if we cannot see the future?
What if it is too far away to even imagine?
What if the future is not what you have imagined it to be?
What if halfway along the journey, we lost sight of our destination?
What if your other half also do not have the answers?
What if your other half is also nt sure what he wants and what he's looking for?

Should we just hold on this warm feeling call love? To the smile that comes from my heart everytime u look into my eyes, everytime we talked abt our plans, everytime u take effort to make me happy, everytime i see that look of understanding on your face, everytime u call my name....
Praying that the day I am waiting for will really come?
Praying that things will remain as rosy as it is in the beginning?

Happiness is....

2007-01-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

Happiness is....
having a nice bowl of yummy home boiled soup by mum when you get home...

My Birthday Celebration

2007-01-11T13:16:00.000+08:00

I would rather nt blog abt my birthday celebration, itz the angriest and unhappiest one all my 27 yrs of life, all thanks to a handful of events.
Would have gladly leave the celebration and go elsewhere if not for my family and other friends whom I have invited.
But just a small occasion can make me see alot of things crystal clear, and I am glad.

Happy Birthday to ME!

2007-01-05T00:01:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to ME!

OMG OMG Oh my Freaking God ~~

I am 27 already ?!

-_-

Muacks to myself anyway...hehe...

Age is an issue of mind over matter, if you dun mind, it doesnt matters :P

Singapore Zoo Trip - 30th December 2006

2007-01-01T15:24:00.000+08:00

Singapore Zoo Trip - 30th December 2006

Who can go to the zoo and nt meet these "people"?

Check out hw happy Alyssia is

Little Sophia

Baby sister, Karina

And wat is my baby doing? *scratches head*

Now Sophia's in the big elephant...

This staircase is real steep...

Haha, little Sophia's foot compared to the elephant's one....

Sophia actually knows the real scientific name of the parrot...

Stoopit Blogger, dun noe why dun allow me to upload anymore pics...shall upload if I have time

Ignorance is BLISS

2006-12-29T16:04:00.000+08:00

Ignorance is BLISS
What you do not know will not hurt you
But what if I know?
Many a times I feel that I deserve better...
:(

End of 2007

2006-12-27T16:20:00.000+08:00

Vrooom VROOOOMMMM.....

X'mas came & went in a flash, all the highs of buying pressies for ppl u love and care about, watching them open your handpicked gifts and looking for that smile on their faces, the food, the parties, the decorations, the preparations.....

This festive also brings out another side of my boyfriend. He suddenly turns into a Santa Claus by his own standards during this season of giving and sharing. Spent more than half of what he had and he din even flinch an eyebrow nor complain about anything, which is rather unlike him...but well, itz still nice to see him behaving this way, though it may be only once a year.... :)

So did 2006, only 4 days left to a brand new year

I can't really remember what exactly I did in 2006.

Letz see:-

1) I went to holidays - 2 trips to Bangkok, 1 to KL, 1 to Tioman Island, countless 1 day adventures to JB

2) I've gotten a boyfriend and grown close to his family

3) I failed my examination the 1st time ever in my life

4) I gotten myself a god daughter

5) I cut my fringe short

6) I perm my hair

7) I went on a detox programe for the 1st time and became healthier

8) I pierced my belly button

My resolution for the coming year and every year is, for myself to be happy, everyday, irregardless of what I do.

Whatz urs?

Santa Claus is coming to TOWN!

2006-12-22T13:12:00.000+08:00

Santa Claus is coming to TOWN!

He'll know if you have been good or bad ~

Hohoho

Just last year, I was standing by the riverside, when the clock strikes 12 on X'mas Eve, blowing a kiss across the continents and the oceans, hoping a person over at the other end of the world will be able to catch it...

This year, I have my bee bee and his very wonderful family ~~

Erm... Me is BLESSED!

Kit Kat is a one HAPPY woman!

My Everyday Fren's Birthday Celebration

2006-12-21T12:38:00.000+08:00

Another back-dated entry, me so busy...no time to upload and type all...

Celebration of my everyday fren's birthday - Ms Annie Oh (kekeke, getting old too, cannot laff at me for too long)

Date: 15 December 2006

(her birthday is on 10th December, but everyone's so busy with their own stuff and she's real occupied too)

The very pretty BIRTHDAY GAL!

(with her fav flowers - tulips, but can tell that I went to buy it? Coz the colour is so purple, so "Barney" as she put it, so ME :P)

Muacks muacks Part 1 (Rossie gt very worked up after this shot, coz Annie turned and kiss her on her lips, and ya, tatz me in the background)

Muacks Muacks Part 2 - Ah Mint

Yao Nv & Yao Jing - Women in Black

Lao Yao Jing & Yao Nv

Hey, watz this trio doing huh? Each is lost in a world of their own

Our food - Hooters Sampler Platter (gt alot of other food, but din take pictures coz by then EVERYONE's too hungry)

Marking Attendance - Eileen, Adeline, Regine, Regina, Roseleen, Annie, Valerie, Karthy and Xiao Xin

Yum Yum !

Actually there are alot more pictures, but I can't seem to be able to upload them anymore... so thatz it for the time being... :D

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Quote of the day:

If you think you can, you can

If you think you can't, you can't

Either way, you are probably right....

200th Day

2006-12-15T17:42:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was our 200th day together... I was juz day dreaming and decided to count the days on the calender... then realised that itz the 2nd hundred already...

A lil prayer of thanks for every single day you are in my life.

Love love.

Jealousy

2006-12-14T11:40:00.000+08:00

When a boy makes a girl jealous

a boy liked a girl but wanted to make her jealous.

Then one day things went terribly wrong.

The next few weeks were like a very sad song.

He made her jealous on purpose he tried.

When the girl asked, "Do you love her?"on purpose he lied.

He played with jealousy like it was a game.

Little did he know Things would never be the same.

His plan was working but he had no clue.

How wrong things would go, the damage he would do.

One night she broke down, feeling very alone.

Just her and the blade, no one else home.

She dialed his number, he answered, "Hello"

She told him she loved him and hung up the phone.

He raced to her house just a minute too late.

Found her lying in blood,her heart had no rate.

Beside her was a note, in it her confession.

Her love for this boy, her only obsession.

As he read the note, he knelt down and cried.

Grabbed her knife, that night they both died.

She was found in his arms, both of them dead.

Under her note his handwriting said:"I loved her so, she never knew.

All this time I loved her too."

Untroubled :P

2006-12-11T10:08:00.000+08:00

Untroubled

Hehe... :P

Good Morning Monday!

Birth Date Love Life

2006-12-10T00:36:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: January 5

People wouldn't take you for a passionate person - and that's where they'd be wrong.You can develop deep emotions quickly, and you're the type most likely to move in with someone after a few dates.
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 5
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5
You are most compatible with people born on the 5th, 14th, and 23rd of the month.

5 true loves & 5 heartbeaks...hahhaha, wat a joke
Fell in love hard and get hurt equally hard
Wat a pathetic life

I Ask My Gal

2006-12-09T23:56:00.000+08:00

I ask my gal, to take a walk

To take a walk, down Orchard Road

Bypass Mandarin to Centrepoint

We had our lunch at MacDonald's

We had fillet and apple pie, we shared a cup of lemon lime

I hold her hands, looked into her eyes

I ask my gal, to be my Valentine

There was one night, there was no lights

There was no lights, so we used torchlight

I hold her close, looked into her eyes

I ask my gal, to be my future wife

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Such a sweet song

Feeling troubled ~

Saying goes: spoken words are like water that are splashed out - cannot be reversed, cuts deeper than you know

Read an article: If a person truly loves you, he will never hurt you physically or emotionally during fights, when the temper is high and emotions run wild

Compromised my principles and pride for love - worth it?

Who can tell me?

Retired Hooters Girls

2006-11-29T10:53:00.000+08:00

Retired Hooters Girls
Haha... Farnee....

The Swollen Me

2006-11-25T01:36:00.000+08:00

This morning stoopit Adrian sent this pic to everyone in the office except me, then the gals showed it to me.... :(

Sigh ~~ only 1.5 yrs ago.... and I tot I was FAT back then... look at me now... *wail* and Stephen (my colleague, the guy in the pic, has a face TWICE of this now) wahahaha....

Nvm la, prosperity and happiness look is IN !

Bleah ~

Friends

2006-11-24T00:48:00.000+08:00

"Friends are the siblings that God has forgotten to give us"

Something has been on my mind for quite some time...

There are many different kinds of friends on earth - acquaintances, working friends, studying friends, activity friends, close frens, best frens, everyday frens, so on and so forth...

I used to have this fren ("used" is used here coz I am unsure if we still are anymore), or rather this group of frens, whom I used to be very very close with. They appeared at the beginning of 1 of my life's lowest point, when I feel that God has forsaken me, when the skies are crushing onto me, when I tot the trials that I have to go through are a little too much for me to handle...and walked all the way through them all with me, hand in hand, side by side...

We call ourselves sisters, sisters are supposed to be forever, aint they? And at the time we do love each other like one, we are always there for each other, regardless of what happened. We party like there's no tomorrow, we laugh our heads off and cry our hearts out (all of us have our own set of problems), there's nothing frightening or no time when I feel that I am lonely coz I have them around. We can talk everyday, and still feel that there's not enough time to finish what we wanna say, or we can simply sit by the river and just enjoying the moonlight...

But somehow, I dun noe how and I dun noe why, just when I finally find my reason to smile again, when I finally muster the courage to believe again... they left my life, not as in leaving town or to that point, but we seems to be in contact lesser and lesser, hardly any effort is made to maintain this precious friendship.

I do not know if itz something I did or say wrong, or coz I dun really wanna live the old lifestyle that I used to lead, of endless drinking, partying, meeting different men and.... maybe itz coz I wanna be a good gal again, no idea, coz no one would enlighten me...

Itz not about feeling left out, being not invited for activities, itz about losing a fren, frens who has once played such a significant role in a period of your life, without whom, I would not know what would I be today.

Losing a fren. Itz a big deal to me. Oh well....

End of Year Wishlist

2006-11-23T16:54:00.000+08:00

Jingle bells, jingle bells, jingles all the way ~~ hohoho.... how time flies, whether you like it or not, 365 days flipped by just like that... SANTA CLAUS IS COMING TO TOWN!!! :D

Anyway, being the festive seasons... I am having many many many wishes.... lol....

Wonder who will be soooo kind to buy for me in this peace, love and joy period *thinking, thinking, thinking*...hahaha

Sigh ~ :( I tink I'll most probably end up getting them myself, but never mind la... hehehe...

1st item of desire

Nokia 7390, being the bimbotic me, I only know hw to, and only like to use the super user-friendly Nokia phones. 1 of their latest phones, comes with 3.0 megapixels camera and blue tooth, though it does not have 3G like my current one, but I hardly use the 3G function, so itz still alright to me...

Retail price as at 18 Nov when I check is S$698/-

2nd item of desire

Sony Cyber Shot DSC - T10/P (black or pink also can), been wanting to get a digital still camera for quite some time, but either no time to really check it out or money no enough, but I think I would like to get one before X'mas this year....

Retail price shown on official website is S$599/-

More to come... pocket gonna have a big hole.... :P

Garfield's Life Theory

2006-11-21T11:27:00.000+08:00

Hee. reced this from my everyday fren....
I like...

Garfield's Life Theory

Roseleen's 25th Birthday Celebration

2006-11-20T17:50:00.000+08:00

Another backdated entry...hehe.. busy + LAZY la, so many pics to upload...

Roseleen's 25th Birthday Celebration @ KBox Marina Square on 10th November 2006, Friday(actually we are more interested in the International Buffet served there... :P)

Too bad Regina cannot join us...

Jing jing jing jing seems to LURVE the star shaped stirrer for the drinks, so the tag team took pic of them ~~

Stars pic take 2, tis time w/o the extra 3rd party as above :P

Some Random pics in the ktv room

Marking attendance - Me, Annie,. Regine, Cherlyn, Roseleen and Adeline (from the pics can see who's the decent ones and who's the horny ones hor??)

Aiya.... there are alot more pics, but dun noe why cannot upload here... when I have more time then I put up, I guess.... Tried afew times already...

Do you understand?

2006-11-19T00:40:00.000+08:00

Something to share...

"Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you."

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Just wanna you that it is not that I have no faith/confidence/trust in you and our r/s, it is just that I am scared...scared of getting hurt, of breaking my heart and feeling breathless, like I am gonna die any minute, again....

Marriage Astrology

2006-11-16T12:20:00.000+08:00

Received this from Regina... hope that it is true.... :)

Rabbit Husband and Sheep Wife
Each is receptive to the vibrations of the other partner. The Rabbit appreciates her compassionate and sensitive ways and she finds him kind, astute and sagacious enough to make their decisions. Her dependence could make him feel more important and purposeful. He is a good listener and she needs sympathy and advice more than action. Both are romantic and affectionate and will enjoy domestic bliss.

Bus Interchange

2006-11-15T11:23:00.000+08:00

I really like this...

We all start at a bus-stop of Lonely and our final destination is Interchange of happiness.
Many of us board and alight along the way, with each step moving closer to the interchange.

Some pple reach the Interchange faster while some slower.
And some still remain at the bus-stop waiting for the right one.

Human Thoughts

2006-11-14T10:26:00.000+08:00

There is a blind girl who hates herself just because she is blind.
She hates everyone, except her loving boyfriend.
He's always there for her.
She tells him that if she can only see the world, she will marry him.
One day, someone donates a pair of eyes to her.
She can now see everything including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asks her, "Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"
The girl is shocked when she realises that her boyfriend is blind too; she refuses to marry him. Sad and heart-broken, her boyfriend walks away in tears.
He later writes a note to her saying: "Just take care of my eyes dear."

This is how human mental thoughts changes when their status changed.
Only few remember what life was before, and who has always been there even in the most painful situations.

Life Is A Gift Today before you think of saying an unkind word,
Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food,
Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion.

Today before you complain about life,
Think of someone who died too early.

Before you complain about your children,
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house, someone didn't clean or sweep,
Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive,
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job,
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another,
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down,
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around.

Our footprints

2006-11-13T18:34:00.000+08:00

Our footprints.....

These few days very emotional, quite affected by the relationship problems of the people around me.
Dun noe watz wrong with the world nowadays, feelings, relationships, commitments, wedding vows are taken very lightly, all are adults, but the way they handle matters are no different from kids, so child play.
Sometimes I dun noe if I should be upset or happy that I am still unmarried, seeing people married for 1 mth and then say wanna divorce, really saddens me.
At the very least, I earn my own keep, do whatever I think fit, not overly dependant financially and/or emotionally on another person.
On the other hand, during the dead of some nights, the last few moments before I dozed off, I wonder if I am considered not good enough for anyone, no one has loved me enough to actually propose and say they want to marry me, devote the rest of his life to me.
Ermmm, human are such contradicting creatures, worse I am a woman...

As for my "him", currently I feel safe and stable with him, we seems to be getting closer after thrashing out our differences during the 1st couple of months. Or is it coz now he's in army, we dun really have much time to meet, much less time to fight.
Whatever the case is, I do treasure this r/s a great deal and hope it lasts as long and as far as it would bring us.
The rest of the stuff, I dare not and can't afford to think too much.

Off to Field Camp in Tekong

2006-11-10T14:51:00.000+08:00

Sigh Sigh ~~

Sob Sob ~~

Sniff Sniff ~~

Off to Pulau Tekong he go

Oh my, I'll miss him so

No contact for 7 days

A good small test for us he says

He promises to watch the stars for me every night

And before I know it, he'll be back

Finalist for Man of the Year

2006-11-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

Finalists for Man of the Year

And the winner is..... *drum roll*.....

My Poor Suffering Baby

2006-11-08T08:08:00.000+08:00

Dedicated to my baby:

Never had a bf who's at the initial stage of serving National Service, everytime he called or sms me to tell me how suffering he is in camp, with injuries/muscle aches all, can't help but feel heartpain for him.

Though I think the army did a good job to him, greater looking bod and tuned his personality to be a better man (prefer him after he gt enlisted... :P), but seems so poor thing sometimes. Hope he's able to handle all the changes and tough training, and emerged a true man.

Movies Review

2006-11-07T14:33:00.000+08:00

Movies I watched over the last 2 weekends, which happened to be 1 of the best few movies I've seen before... both very different genres of movies, but both very engaging and interesting shows...

The Prestige

The Prestige is a masterful exercise in storytelling with superb direction and powerful performances by a grand ensemble cast. From set and production design to cinematography, from script to presentation, Christopher Nolan has once again demonstrated why he is one of the film world's brightest up and coming directors.

The Prestige only helps solidify his standing as one of the landmark directors of his generation. Told in a narrative that jumps between various points along its time line, playing out like a magic act itself, the story is that of two magicians on the rise in their careers. The first -- played by Christian Bale -- is an expert in understanding the fundamentals of any trick, but lacks showmanship. The second -- played by Hugh Jackman -- is a master showman who is more entertaining than technical.

A tragic series of events pits the two performers against each other in a battle of wits that spirals further and further out of control, consuming both of them and everything and everyone they care about. With a story that requires actors with a great deal of emotive range, Nolan has assembled what could be described as a dream cast. Both Bale and Jackman suit their respective roles perfectly, and pitting these two performers against each other was a stroke of casting genius. Michael Caine takes what could have been a forgettable role by any lesser actor and elevates it with his demanding screen presence. Probably the most surprising performance comes from David Bowie whose unforgettable turn as master physicist Nikola Tesla absolutely shines. Add Andy Serkis to the mix, and what is assembled is a group of performers who know how to fully engage the audience.

The Prestige is hard to pigeonhole into any specific genre as it walks the fine line between mystery, drama, suspense and fantasy. In that, the story becomes a never-ending stream of wonder for the mind: one can never tell exactly where the story is going to lead next, becoming more and more as time goes on. This gives Christopher Nolan ample opportunity to play. And play he does. With narration by several characters, each adding their own viewpoint to the events, and with a direction that moves between time to mystify and distract, the end result is a climax that itself is a series of puzzles that each unravel beautifully.

The only major criticisms that can be leveled at the Prestige are a confusing play with the seasons during Tesla's introduction (winter suddenly becomes spring/summer and back again) and a strange choice of music for the closing credits (a pop song at the end of a film such as this seems tacky). However, neither is significant enough of a problem to warrant any need to avoid the film at all.

In the end, the Prestige is a fantastic display of what can be accomplished when you bring together superior talent. It is certainly worth the price of admission and as good as any magic show you are to come across.

The Guardian

After losing his crew in a fatal crash, legendary Rescue Swimmer, Ben Randall (KEVIN COSTNER), is sent to teach at “A” School, an elite training program for Coast Guard Rescue Swimmers.

Wrestling with the loss of his crew members, he throws himself into teaching, turning the program upside down with his unorthodox training methods. While there, he encounters a young, cocky swim champ, Jake Fischer (ASHTON KUTCHER), who is driven to be the best.

During training, Randall helps mold Jake’s character, combining his raw talent with the heart and dedication required of a Rescue Swimmer. Upon graduation, Jake follows Randall to Kodiak, Alaska, where they face the inherent dangers of the Bering Sea.

In his initial solo rescue, Jake learns firsthand from Randall, the true meaning of heroism and sacrifice, echoing the Swimmer’s motto...”So Others May Live"

Contented

2006-10-31T17:30:00.000+08:00

How "lucky" can I get, thought I will have a long weekend coz company declare holiday on 23rd, the day b4 Hari Raya, and boyfriend book out for 5 days.

Who would know that I will be down with 2 infections at the same time. Severe throat infection which causes me to have on-off fever that can shoot to 39 degrees in less than 30 mins time. And urinary tract infection which I never had for all my life. Sigh ~~ I end up having additional 3 days of MC and juz returned to work yesterday... Wat a waste of holidays coz I have to stay in bed... but small illness is a fortunate thing, coz then ppl will fuss over you... hehehe...

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I am contented.

I am happy.

I am smiling.

I am loved.

I am blissful.

And itz all coz I have you, all coz I met you, coz we gave this r/s a chance.

Thank you for being there for me.

Thank you for telling me what "normalhood" is.

Thank you for the every little things you do.

I love you.

Book Out Time !

2006-10-20T13:04:00.000+08:00

Itz Book out Time !!!

He's coming home

hehehe.... Can't wait

365 long days ~

2006-10-17T17:37:00.000+08:00

365 long days ~
I will survive, I have all my life to live, I have all my love to give

16 October 2005, Friday
5.30am

I slept for like 2 hrs the night before.
I sat down at the cafe, watching him check in, immigration took 1 hr just to check him in, going through his bags and stuff one by one.
He came over and hug me.
I felt numb, cannot even look at him in the eyes.
Lost all feelings, except that I know tears are rolling non-stop down my cheeks, my face buried in his chest.
He went through the gate, I could not even muster a goodbye wave.
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The following days I passed in a daze.
The following Monday, the test kit shows positive, and a trip to the GP confirmed it.
He hasn't call, no emails either.
I was in shock, went through a roller-coaster trying to decide many things, tell him? keep it? how to find him w/o any tel numbers/address?
I decided to keep it in the end, but alas Heaven always have itz own plan, the only last real link of me and him is still lost in the end.
I cried, my heart is shattered, I am torn, I am in pieces, I am in confusion, I am a mess, but what can I do?

I will never forget the 2 little scans I have of my 1st child, the size of a grain of rice but seems to be able to talk to me already.
I will never forget how it feels to go for check ups all by myself.
I will never forget how I pour my hearts out the day the doc told me I had to remove it, the same way as an abortion, like I dun wan it but I do.
I will never forget how terrified I am when I am sitting outside the surgical room, waiting for my turn.
I will never forget how itz all over in 10 mins, I wake up and everything's gone. All my visions, my wish, my hopes, my love for this living being inside me, for a total of 8 weeks.
I will never forget how I have to endure the physical pain and the emotional trauma all by myself, coz no one, except myself will be able to fully understand how it feels to lose my own child.

I had to get him out of my mind.
I had to numb myself.
I had to stop my heart from bleeding to death.
I had to stop all the pain that never seems to want to leave.
I had to stop myself from thinking that he's still somewhere around, no matter where I go.
I am 1 step away from becoming someone I dun recognise anymore.
I went crazy, almost.
I drowned myself in alchohol and parties and meeting different men everytime, but all I want is him.
Juz one look, one smile, one sentence, one touch, one kiss, one more whatever from him.
Of coz, these never came.

Gradually the pain subsides, it din leave, but at least it doesnt cuts my soul into halves all the time.
Then I started smiling more, started enjoying life, started trying to pick up life where I left it.
Then I met him, this man who I never imagine I will be with.
He speaks of my "cute cute face and my cute cute smile". :)

Up till now, I dun noe why I said yes.
Perhaps itz his smile, or the sparkle in his eyes, or the cheekiness in his words, or how he can make me laugh, or I feel that I want to connect with him, or he makes me feel safe and warm.
Whatever magic he uses, it seems to work.
We aint that lovey-dovey, not all tat sweet and rosy, being 7 yrs apart, coming from very different family background, upbringing and all.
We fought, we argued, we talked, we shouted, we had ups and downs.
Yet we are still together, and I love him.
Not in the earth-shaking, god forsaking kinda love, but I do love him.
If I am R's sunshine like he says, D is my sunshine, he brought cheer, warmth, laughter and light back into my life.
He stopped my tears and brings me smiles everyday.

And that is how I spent my past yr....

10 days since ~

2006-10-16T14:40:00.000+08:00

2 individuals are linked by 1 heart

Been 10 days since I last saw my boyfriend, kinda worried that he would not be able to recognise me anymore... hehehe...

Though we talked on the phone everyday, but it still does not feels the same as having him by my side, watching his expressions, laughing at him and his silly gestures, fighting with him over bed space and blanket...

Even though itz only slightly more than a week, I can practically sense the change in him, how he has become more sensitive to others' feelings, how he has learned to be more appreciative of everything and everyone, including me, how I feel that this relationship is important to him, and to me....

Countdown, 4 more days to seeing him again.... him and his botak head....I must be patient....

I am an ENFP

2006-10-10T15:46:00.000+08:00

ENFP

outgoing, social, disorganized, easily talked into doing silly things, spontaneous, wild and crazy, acts without thinking, good at getting people to have fun, pleasure seeking, irresponsible, physically affectionate, risk taker, thrill seeker, likely to have or want a tattoo, adventurous, unprepared, attention seeking, hyperactive, irrational, loves crowds, rule breaker, prone to losing things, seductive, easily distracted, open, revealing, comfortable in unfamiliar situations, attracted to strange things, non punctual, likes to stand out, likes to try new things, fun seeker, unconventional, energetic, impulsive, empathetic, dangerous, loving, attachment prone, prone to fantasy

favored careers:
performer, actor, entertainer, songwriter, musician, filmmaker, comedian, radio broadcaster/dj, some job related to theater/drama, poet, music journalist, work in fashion industry, singer, movie producer, playwright, bartender, comic book author, work in television, dancer, artist, record store owner, model, freelance artist, teacher (art, drama, music), writer, painter, massage therapist, costume designer, choreographer, make up artist

disfavored careers:
data analyst, scientist, researcher, financial advisor, business analyst, govt employee, office manager, mathematician, investment banker, office worker, computer tech, it professional, network engineer, strategist

You are in my mind ~~

2006-10-10T10:53:00.000+08:00

Miss your nonsense,

Miss your chattering,

Miss fussing over you,

Miss nagging you,

Miss you calling me names,

Miss you annoying me,

Miss simply having you by my side,

I miss you, lotz.... simple as that

Birthday Calculator

2006-10-06T15:09:00.000+08:00

Birthday Calculator

This is mine.....

5 January 1980

Your date of conception was on or about 14 April 1979 which was a Saturday.
You were born on a Saturday under the astrological sign Capricorn.
Your Life path number is 6.

Life Path Compatibility:You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 3, 6 & 9.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 8, 11 & 22.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2444243.5.
The golden number for 1980 is 5.
The epact number for 1980 is 13.
The year 1980 was a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 1/28/1979 and ending 2/15/1980.Y
ou were born in the Chinese year of the Goat.

As of 10/6/2006 3:04:26 AM EDT
You are 26 years old.
You are 321 months old.
You are 1,396 weeks old.
You are 9,771 days old.
You are 234,507 hours old.
You are 14,070,424 minutes old.
You are 844,225,466 seconds old.

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 3.82426614481409 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)
There are 91 days till your next birthdayon which your cake will have 27 candles.

Those 27 candles produce 27 BTUs,or 6,804 calories of heat (that's only 6.8040 food Calories!) .
You can boil 3.09 US ounces of water with that many candles.

Your birthstone is Garnet -->The Mystical properties of Garnet
Garnet is used as a power stoneSome lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Emerald, Rose Quartz

Your birth tree is Fir Tree, the Mysterious
Extraordinary taste, dignity, cultivated airs, loves anything beautiful, moody, stubborn, tends to egoism but cares for those close to it,rather modest, very ambitious, talented, industrious uncontent lover, many friends, many foes, very reliable.

Tis is baby's....

7 February 1987

Your date of conception was on or about 17 May 1986 which was a Saturday.
You were born on a Saturday under the astrological sign Aquarius.
Your Life path number is 7.
Life Path Compatibility:You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 4 & 22.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 9.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 3, 6, 8 & 11.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2446833.5.
The golden number for 1987 is 12.
The epact number for 1987 is 0.
The year 1987 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 1/29/1987 and ending 2/16/1988.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Rabbit.

As of 10/6/2006 3:11:20 AM EDT
You are 19 years old.
You are 236 months old.
You are 1,026 weeks old.
You are 7,181 days old.
You are 172,347 hours old.
You are 10,340,831 minutes old.
You are 620,449,880 seconds old.

Your age is the equivalent of a dog that is 2.8105675146771 years old. (Life's just a big chewy bone for you!)

There are 124 days till your next birthday on which your cake will have 20 candles.
Those 20 candles produce 20 BTUs,or 5,040 calories of heat (that's only 5.0400 food Calories!).
You can boil 2.29 US ounces of water with that many candles.

Your birthstone is Amethyst -->The Mystical properties of Amethyst
Amethyst is used to increase spiritually
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Bloodstone, Onyx, Moonstone

Your birth tree is Poplar, the Uncertainty
Looks very decorative, no self-confident behaviour, only courageous if necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, artistic nature, good organiser, tends to philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership serious.

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Wow, according to this, we are the least compatible for each other ohhh....hehe...dun care la...

This morning send my dear to the camp, 1st time sending boyfriend off to army...feels weird...

OMG! Only a few hours, and I already miss his voice, he'll usually call me a few times throughout the day to tell me things or just to disturb me... :(
Hope the next 2 weeks pass by faster....

Tioman Trip 30 Sep - 2 Oct 06

2006-10-04T16:54:00.000+08:00

Debts

2006-09-29T13:23:00.000+08:00

My religion says, people meet people for a reason, itz usually to repay a debt. We owe someone something in our previous life(s), and we are made to bump into these people at a specified date, at a specified time, hence by our meetings and getting together, we pay off what we are unable to in our previous cycles. These fated meetings, may be long or may be short, may be a life time, maybe a few months.

I guess I had been a really mean person, that is why so many people come into my life to claim their due. However, I am always left hurt and broken and never the same again...When will I find my pier and my shoulder to lean on?

I am tired, so feel like stopping and not move on anymore...

You're Beautiful...

2006-09-14T17:33:00.000+08:00

You're Beautiful

- James Blunt

My life is brilliant

My love is pure

I saw an angel

Of that I'm sure

She smiled at me on the subway

She was with another man

But I won't lose no sleep on that,'Cause I've got a plan

You're beautiful

You're beautiful, it's true.

I saw you face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,

'Cause I'll never be with you

Yeah, she caught my eye

As we walked on by

She could see from my face that I was, Fucking high,

And I don't think that I'll see her again,

But we shared a moment that will last till the end

You're beautiful

You're beautiful, it's true

I saw you face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,'Cause I'll never be with you

You're beautiful

You're beautiful, it's true

There must be an angel with a smile on her face,

When she thought up that I should be with you

But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you

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Someone used to sing this song to me alot, it never dawned me until recently when I pay attention to the lyrics, they always strucked a chord somehow when it was played...

Oh well...

BKK Trip with Mummy and Family - 1 Sep to 4 Sep 06

2006-09-14T16:24:00.000+08:00

BKK Trip with Mummy and Family
1 Sep to 4 Sep 06

SUPER DUBER backdated entry, saved in draft, no time to complete... till now...

Mummy dated me to go Bangkok trip with her, and aunts, and uncles and cousins...all 12 of us...so big group hard to shop till I drop, but for mummy, anything la, been a long while since I went on a holiday with her...

See Pics hor....

Bags....

and more bags.... :) this one is hello kitty one wor 99 Baht only.... so worth it

The tops I bought....

Shorts....

The only skirt I bought this time

Itz not me if I dun buy any lingerie..... heheheh

Dress sets...

Undies...

These are only the stuff I bought for myself...haven counted in those I bought as gifts.... and I cant seem to be able to load the pics I took with mummy here...ermmm... dun noe why, maybe coz I am ultimately still an IT idiot... haha

You & Me

2006-09-12T13:50:00.000+08:00

We have hurdles, we have fights

We have cuddles when we hold tight

Sometimes we can not decide, yet can not deny

this stream of feelings we have inside

People look on with skeptism

We chose to walk on with determination

Coz when we look into our eyes, we saw what is deep down inside

RP Gals

2006-08-29T15:52:00.000+08:00

Specially dedicated to our "Ribena"...

From strangers to pals, when 365 days goes
We've laughed, we've grew and shared our souls

Many a times we walked through our encounters hand in hand
Alas, such as life dictates, all good things will come to an end

Friends we shall remain, to shop and hang out as we do with glee
Take my wishes for a brighter future and endless happiness wherever your next stop will be

Wrong Frequency

2006-08-24T15:18:00.000+08:00

Is it all wrong?

Is being emotional, showing my feelings, opening my heart and bare it all for you to see, inappropriate?

Is it annoying you that I tried to display them all on the table for you to have a good look?

Should I, or should I not invite you to the deepest of my heart?

Have you been in love?

2006-08-23T11:41:00.000+08:00

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isnt it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build all these defences; you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didnt ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isnt your own anymore.

Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like "maybe we should be just friends" turns into a glass splinter working its way your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. Its a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you and rips-you-apart pain.

After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love doesnt mean leaning and company doesnt always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses arent contracts and presents are promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure you really are strong you really do have worth and you learn and you learn with every goodbye, you learn...

Where was I?

2006-08-21T18:02:00.000+08:00

Where was I? Where were you 20 years ago? 15? 10? 5? 3? 1? I am feeling nostalgic. I’ll tell my story, anyone wanna share with me theirs?

20 yrs ago, I was 6. Living with nature, playing with lalang, flying kites in the vast field, pulling granny's sweet potatoes and having a ball of time bbq-ing them with stolen newspapers and matches. Playing with manual sewing machines, and getting pierced by the needle, playing with pencil and getting eraser stucked in my nose. Sat outside our old kampong family house, on the the tiny stool in front of granny, letting her tie my waist length hair into 2 buns with bright red furry rubber bands. And then sitting side by side each other killing mosquitoes that hv settled on our arms. I'll beat her by numbers every day. Grandpa almost hit the teachers coz he wanted to get me some food during my kindergarten graduation photo-taking but was not allowed. I love granny, told her I'll buy her lotz of flowers when she dies.

15 yrs ago, I had my 1st "bf". A boy I met at the gaming arcade, I can't remember his face now, nor his name. It lasted 3 days. I was the prefect in school, but I was far from perfect. Being late for school, not attending sch at all, stealing shoes from neighbours houses, loitering at void decks with a whole gang of "frens", lying abt gg to sch when I go somewhere else, you name it, I did it (mostly). My principal's office has my dad's name and number written on the big white board. Something happened, I disliked staying at home, dislike everything. I am an angry teenager. I can go on cold war with dad for months on end. Still, i passed my PSLE with not too bad results. Not too long after, I started my partying life. FIRE is where I go on my 1st trip to a club. I never stop clubbing since then.

10 years ago, sweet 16. I had a group of best frens, good sisters who studies, eat, go parties, go bbq, and do almost everything together. Told my frens after "O" Levels, I want to marry an old dying rich man who dotes on me enough to leave me with his entire fortune when he dies. Then I can go travel and see the world. Of course, I never did. But I never wanted to stay put on this small island. I want more than this island can offer. I met him, a guy I spent the better half of my teenage life and half of my 20s with. We fought, we cried, we laughed and we drifted apart. We stayed together for 9 years though. He's a good man, he treats me well, he brought me on my 1st cruise and plane trip. He's stable, makes a good husband, and he's married now. The bride, is someone else. My dad vanished from my life at that time. Me, mum and brothers are doing well without him now.

5 years ago, I turned 21. I just moved house, from a much bigger place to a much smaller one. I felt suffocated by the sudden reduction in personal space. I felt trapped. My granny passed on not long before that, I cried hard, and still think of her with the fondest memories. She made me realized that true love is indeed, forever. I spent my 21st birthday at home, sick, celebrations were either before or after the actual day. Nope, no big wild, crazy reaching-of-age parties, juz cosy get-togethers with friends. I am finally old enough to do things legally without needing to seek parental approval. But when the day came, it felt no different from any other days. After that age, birthday celebrations aint such a big deal anymore (at least to me), and I wish I'll always be 21. Of course, that never happens. I lost that group of good sisters from my sec sch days. Nt sure what exactly happened, but I realize that there are no such thing as best frens, but I do still make a whole lot of good frens along my life's journey till now, and they have been invaluable to me, accompanying me through part of my life's most trying period.

3 years ago, life became a daily and monthly routine. Going to work, getting off work, going for dinners, going for shopping, staying late to finish the never ending stream of work given, waiting for the pathetic pay at the end of the month. Trying to save for marriage with the guy whom I thought I'll definitely marry. One day, some frens offered an opportunity to start a business, an area of work which I have absolutely no idea about. But me, being me, dug out almost the whole of my savings, together with potential loss of income during the start up period, plunged myself head-on. Quitted my stable job as a legal secretary, and went on to take up the status of being self-employed. People looked on with skeptical eyes, mum gt no allowances for months on end, and me did not get to buy new clothings for months as well. I had to count hw much I can spent in a single day/meal/trip. The day I get a decent paycheck, I bought myself a $50 Myphosis sandals (which is a luxury for me at that time) and treated the family to crabs. The rest is, like they say, history. Finally we did it.

1 year ago - I was at a party, being bimbotic, chatting with the guests and all when I saw this tall cute American who swept me off my feet the moment our eyes met. I din actually see him, my frens did, all I can remember is dancing to the song "Love Me" by Collin Raye with him. I remember falling in love that very night. 5 months later, he left, he's sick that day and I felt numb, like my soul's departed, cannot even master a goodbye at the departure gate in the airport. A whole series of events happened, and my entire world changed. But one thing remained, I still wanted to see the world, as much as I can, while I am alive. My principles in life got reinforced, to live life to the fullest, no regrets. Life is short, do watever makes me happy, regardless of what other people says.

Today, I am 1 tough woman. I have gone through hell and back. I haven die, "I have all my life to live and all my love to give, I will survive"... I have a good business, reaping in the fruits of our initial labour, I have quite a handful of close frens who will weather through all things with me, I have my dearest mummy and brothers, I have a boyfriend who somehow or other makes me smile, and his family are nice to me. I go holidays as and when I like, I do most of the things I wanna do. I am counting my blessings. I have been on this world long enough to know that life itself is full of ups and downs, lows and highs, laughters and tears, confusions and complications, choices and fate. Live for the moment is my motto. Who cares about what tomorrow will bring? But I wanna be a birdie in my next life, if there's any.

My Numberology

2006-08-17T18:35:00.000+08:00

This reading is based on —
Birth Name: Ong Wei Ling Karthy
Birth Date: 1/5/1980 (January 5, 1980)

Your Inner or Soul's Urge: This is spiritual and emotional expression more than physical. It is your heart-felt desires, your incentive, how you look at life. Here are your areas of personal satisfaction.

Number: 1

Usually not very emotional, you are in this life to take action.
You want to lead and direct.
You are independent at heart and desire to reach your goals by your own efforts and intelligence. You have a strong creative force with many original and interesting ideas. There is much inner strength available to you. Rarely do you shirk responsibilities.
You are proud of your abilities and seek opportunities to display your strength and usefulness.
Others will respect and help you, like a true leader deserves, so long as you acknowledge and validate the interests and desires of others as well as your own. Be kind and generous, and you can be a recognized leader.
You can display conceit and intolerance of people who are considered inferior -- boastful, egotistical, critical, impatient of trifles -- especially when you feel impeded. When you are headstrong, impulsive, or highly willful, you may appear contrary, bossy, dominating, or egotistical. You tend to be impatient with those who are resistant to change.
You can be reticent, and can lack self-confidence. Sometimes you won't take a stand for fear of hurting others. Yet, something continually keeps urging you forward.
You want your home, spouse, and family to be a credit to you.
Overall, you are loyal in friendship, fair in business, a safe leader, and work diligently. You are capable of great accomplishment.

Your Personality: This is physical expression more than spiritual or emotional; your outer self, the way you express when meeting others. It may or may not be the real you.

Number: 8
You appear friendly, persuasive, self-controlled, and positive, with a powerful personality that attracts respect from both leaders and subordinates. You are one who gets things done.
You hesitate to demonstrate emotion or tenderness.
To do your personality justice, you should always be well-dressed in good materials that give you an appearance of success.

Your Quiescent Self: Stripping away all outside influences, aspirations, ambitions, "shoulds", and "shouldn'ts" -- this is you when you are alone; just you and your dreams..

Number: 8
You envision yourself as the Executive Director and/or on the Board of Directors of many large, international companies. Your suite of offices is expansive, with dedicated staff sufficient to do business on the enormous scale that you do.
Your thoughts and pleasure are of vibrant businesses with you as the executive and your professional staff taking care of the details.

Your Destiny or Ultimate Goal: This is your desired lifetime accomplishment. It is a key to a useful and happy life, and to feeling fulfillment during your latter days.

Number: 9
Your destiny is service to mankind and representing all that is fine, true, and generous. This is easier with tolerance, compassion, and understanding. You have tremendous power to warm the hearts of humanity and to stimulate the perception of beauty.
You have an eye for beauty and perfection and are inspirational, kind, understanding, generous, an inspired artist, intuitive, and psychic. You give freely of your emotions, your skill, and your leadership purely for the benefit of mankind. You have the ability to use words effectively and artistically, both written and verbal.
You are artistic, beautiful, strong, courteous, kind, impulsive, emotional, harmonious, and have an impressive personality.

Your Life's Path: Here are clues to what fate has in store for you. It indicates the type of encounters, events, and opportunities you are likely to experience along your physical life path.

Number: 6
You are a humanitarian and idealist, with a path of serving mankind, doing worthwhile things for yourself and those close to you, and teaching by being an example of kindness, justice, truth, and responsibility. One of your challenges along your life path is to establish emotional balance and stability.
Your path is one of rendering service to those in need. Your strong sense of family is extended to the community, the state, and even the world. Learn to recognize when the demands of others are an effort to take advantage of your generosity rather than a true need. Finding tranquility in your home may be hard work for you, but once achieved the result can be tasteful surroundings and harmonious social and familial intercourse.
You can succeed at anything when the purpose is helping and serving others. You have a strong idealism and are at your best when you directly benefit the lives of others.

This Year's Path: Here is what you are likely to encounter this year -- your feelings, your predominant perspective, and the type of situations, circumstances, and opportunities you tend to attract during the calendar year.

Number: 5
This is a year of change for you, a year to get out of the rut. Your opportunities are found outside ordinary routine. New opportunities and new conditions are manifesting (some may appear unexpectedly) -- new relationships, new ideas, new contacts, new enterprises, new plans -- more freedom, more variety, more travel -- broader fields of interest and activity.
It is a year of new experiences -- change, growth, fun, freedom. You feel an inner push to go do something, anything, so long as it's a new experience. You notice more opportunities to travel. It is time to take advantage of the prevailing atmosphere of change and variety to learn something new. The year adds new life and color to your undertakings.
The changes can be thrilling and inspiring. Now is the time to take advantage of the enhanced sense of freedom you feel and create new outlets for your genius. It is also a time to let older people and children inspire you.
If you have a business, you may wish to advertise more than usual, possibly presenting your business with a new, even unique, angle.

Next Year's Path.

Number: 6
This is a year of service for you, a duty year. You feel you're assuming new responsibilities. People make more demands of you this year. You are needed in many directions.
Warmth and good will toward others, along with love and harmony, will make everything worthwhile. Justice, fair play, and honesty are important. It is a year for unselfish service.
Take care of your health because without it you cannot help others. Find time for rest and relaxation. This is a year to be thorough and conscientious about everything that you do.
It is a year of fine and friendly influence for marriage, tranquil home conditions, and traditional family activities. You may feel a strong desire to get settled.

Last Year's Path.

Number: 4
This is a practical year; no long leisurely periods for dreaming, personal indulgence, or careless living. It is a time to build the firm and secure foundation upon which your future depends, using practical values and steady application. It is also the time to work out the details of that project you've been thinking about. Read the fine print of all transactions.
This is the year to find where you stand in life, and to be practical about it -- to pay attention to details.
This year demands a lot of work, not only to improve the present but also to build practical foundations for the future. Your diligence brings commensurate rewards. With good sense, you can meet all requirements and experience satisfactory gain.
Your gatherings, meetings, parties, and trips are mostly related to work or business.
As part of the practical focus of this year, attend to health matters.

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KL Shopping Trip 11 Aug 06 - 13 Aug 06

2006-08-17T11:48:00.000+08:00

KL Shopping Trip 11 Aug 06 - 13 Aug 06
Attendees: Kit Kat, Ni Ni & Adel

Finally can show some signs of living after gg through the past 2 weeks of preparation for exams, even if nv really study also dun feel good gg on the net to do things like updating blog... hehe... ya ya, I know I lazy la...

See pics hor....

Backview seems to be nicer, this is me...

Backview seems to be nicer, Adel

Backview seems to be nicer, Ni ni

On the cab, gg to Mid-Valley

In the toilet of our hotel room

Outside KLCC

At the fountain of KLCC

Me and Adel...

Last min packing at the coach platform...

I am ALIVE!

2006-08-17T11:44:00.000+08:00

Me still alive la...

letz play Superman game... quite fun wor... :)

http://hk.promo.yahoo.com/movie/superman/Stop_Press_Game/index.html

Trekking Trip Pixz

2006-08-02T14:57:00.000+08:00

Silly Kat does silly Things

2006-08-02T11:30:00.000+08:00

Silly me do silly things... even my frens can see it, why can't you?

Shall not do these kinda things again.

It doesnt pays, shall take everything from now on with a pinch of salt, double pinch, if necessary.

If this is the way you prefer, I shall follow your lead.

I still do...

2006-08-01T11:40:00.000+08:00

OMG! I still do... sigh ~

When will it ever end, will it even end?

Trekking Trip 23 July 2006

2006-07-28T11:23:00.000+08:00

Hee hee... my boy so sweet, planned a nature trekking trip to Sungei Buloh Wetland Reserve last Sunday, refused to tell me where we gg, only ask me to wear shorts and out on comfortable shoes... so I tag along lor... I am rather amazed he's willing to travel so far just to bring me go see birds, bees, butterflies, insects, etc all the way to Kranji, when he stays in East Coast and Pasir Ris Park is considered too far to him...

But I also nice to him, wake up 2 hrs before him, let him sleep in, and make egg mayo sandwiches to bring along. Lucky I did, coz my dear gets hungry every 2 hrs... :) and he gets grumpy if he doesnt get food.

There are like ard the reserve, 1 (3km), 2 (5km) and 3 (7km), but we keeping intercepting into the different routes that we walked thru part of every one... hohohoh...

While we are about to leave the reserve after abt 3 hrs of walking, we are driving out when we saw a handful of farms ard that place...so we decided to go and venture into those farms...so fun!!

We went into organic vegetable farm, fish/prawn farm, fireflies farm, goats farm, frogs farm, etc. Feed fishes, drink goats milk, eat organic ice-cream...ummm....Nice way to spend a lazy Sunday... :D

Ohh, virtue of my blur bf, we somehow took a wrong route home and ended up in Singapore Discovery Centre, but itz almost 5pm when we reached, and it closes in another hr's time, so we din go in, however, both of us said tat we'll g there one of these days to take a walk and watch the 3D shows they are running....

Wat a day... a nice one, different from gg shopping malls, and watching movies in the cinemas...

Thanks honey ~~

If Love is Blind

2006-07-27T16:04:00.000+08:00

Tiffany - If Love Is Blind

People say that you're no good for me
People say it constantly
I hear it said so much
I repeat it in my sleep

Maybe I am just a fool for you
Maybe you're no angel too
But all that talk is cheap
When I'm alone with you

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
Cause I can't see myself
Not in love with you

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
All the world is crazy anyway
What's it matter what they say
If I'm the one that's wrong
Then let in be my mistake

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
Cause I can't see myself
I'm not in love with you

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
You wouldn't be with me tonight if I didn't feel I was right
What will it matter anyhow a hundred years from now

If love is blind
I'll find my way with you
Cause I can't see myself
I'm not in love with you
If love is blind
I'll find my way with you

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1st heard of this song when I am 13 yrs old, remember standing outside my classroom with my frens singing and humming during intervals between lessons. Nice song, like it till today....

A Note From Far

2006-07-27T15:52:00.000+08:00

A Note from Far,
Strucked the chords of heart,
An ache that seems far yet familiar,
Staring at the name on the screen,
Flooding memories of happiness, laughter, tears and pain
For you, are once my world
For you, I once wanted to give up my world
For now, there's nothing left except flashes in mind, and footsteps in heart
For now, I have found my smiles and cheer once again

When boy become man

2006-07-26T19:05:00.001+08:00

*sniff sniff... bf gg to serve the nation soon... and me, gonna miss him to bits... :(

Parking Skills

2006-07-25T17:03:00.000+08:00

Try this when you free...quite fun oh.... :)

http://www.107.peugeot.co.uk/peugeot.swf

vroom vroooommmm...eeeeeeeeeee...bomb (hit another car)! Hahaha...

5 Stages of a Woman's Life

2006-07-21T17:28:00.000+08:00

5 Stages of a Woman's Life

1. To Grow Up

2. To Fill Out

3. To Slim Down

4. To Hold It In

5. To Hell with It

Ermm..... Quite true...

Everytime - Britney Spears

2006-07-18T15:39:00.000+08:00

Britney Spears»
Everytime

Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only wayI see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all...After all...

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Fell in love with this song recently, though itz been around for sometime, never really a fan of Ms Spears, guess this is the one and only that I really like...

Desperate Housewives - Disney version

2006-07-18T14:39:00.000+08:00

Cute... :)

Men are Hard to Please

2006-07-17T11:31:00.000+08:00

Men Are Hard To Please
The problems with GUYS:

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE with him; If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.

If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to LURE him; If u Don't, he says u are from KAMPUNG.

If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN; If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.

If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE; If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.

If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u; If u Love him, he will try to LEAVE u.(very true huh?)

If u don't make love with him, he says u don't Love him; If u do he says u are CHEAP.

If u tell him your PROBLEM, he says u are TROBLESOME; If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.

If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him; If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u. (Bullshit)

If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED; If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.

If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl; If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMAN.

If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK; If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.

If u HURT him, u are CRUEL; If he HURTS u, u are too ! SENSITIVE!! & sooo hard to please!!!!!

..... What the....??!!!

A Love Story ~~

2006-07-12T18:06:00.000+08:00

He met her on a party. She was so outstanding, many guys chasing after her, while he so normal, nobody paid attention to him.
At the end of the party, he invited her to have coffee with him, she was surprised but due to being polite, she promised.
They sat in a nice coffeeshop, he was too nervous to say anything, she felt uncomfortable, she thought, please, let me go home.... suddenly he asked the waiter. "would you please give me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee."
Everybody stared at him, so strange! His face turned red but still, he put the salt in his coffee and drank it. She asked him curiously, why you have this hobby?
He replied: "when I was a little boy, I was living near the sea, I like playing in the sea, I could feel the taste of the sea, just like the taste of the salty coffee.
Now every time I have the salty coffee, I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss my parents who are still living there".
While saying that tears filled his eyes.
She was deeply touched.
That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart.
Aman who can tell out his homesickness, he must be a man who loves home, cares about home, has responsibility of home.
Then she also started to speak, spoke about her faraway hometown, her childhood, her family. That was really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.
They continued to date.
She found that actually he was a man who meets all her demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted, warm, careful.
He was such a good person but she almost missed him!
Thanks to his salty coffee!
Then the story was just like every beautiful love story, the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life...
And, everytime she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.
After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said:"My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life lie. This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee.
Remember the first time we dated?
I was so nervous at that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead.I never thought that could be the start of our communication!
I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life, but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything..
Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth: I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste..
But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life! Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you. Having you with me is my biggest happiness for my whole life.
If I can live for the second time, still want to know you and have you for my whole life, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again".
Her tears made the letter totally wet.
Someday, someone asked her: "what's the taste of salty coffee?" It's sweet. She replied, Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not to see but to understand, not to hear but to listen, not tp let go but to HOLD ON !!!!

Definition of Love (from kids' perspective)

2006-07-11T18:33:00.000+08:00

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love." Rebecca- age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other." Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs." Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK." Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss" Emily - age 8

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate," Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday." Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore." Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken." Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford." Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image) Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross." Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget." Jessica - age 8

Love is....

2006-07-10T18:26:00.000+08:00

Love is - when you find yourself feeling more and more for this person, day by day
Love is - when you started saying things abt him to everyone & anyone who is willing to listen
Love is - when you switch off your logic and let your heart lead you

Love is - when you look at the whole thing and goes... ermm, I think I hv made the right choice by putting my feet into it

Love is - this one person, this person who was once a stranger, this person who notices you way b4 you do (he says), this person who you never tot that you'll be with 2 mths ago, this person who stopped your tears and brought you smiles

Love is - when you travel 45 mins to see him after walking for 10 hrs non-stop, carrying 3 heavy bags of stuff, juz coz he asked you to, when you can get home in 15 mins time
Love is - when you see a rose lying on the bed when you reached
Love is - when you see you & only you in his eyes (one of his eyes are bruised at tat moment), while he holds the stalk and sings to you, with that shy smile he rarely has
Love is - when he pops a thermometer in your mouth and asks if you want to take any panadol after tat
Love is - when you aint annoyed (surprisingly) at all, when he asked why you are still awake, lying on the bed, holding the covers tight, after he played the songs at a not-so-soft volume, tries to talk to you every 15 minutes or so, with the lights on, for a whole 1-2 hrs
Love is - when you miss him during his absence though you stay at his place for the whole week

Follow My Heart

2006-07-10T17:20:00.000+08:00

Kat, you follow your heart when it comes to romance

Whether you planned it or not, you just can't help but follow your feelings when it comes to matters of l'amour.
You're a passionate person who can't ignore things that fit you to a T — whether it's that perfect pair of jeans, a good cause, or the love of a lifetime.
Sure, things don't always go according to plan, but with an irrepressible drive like yours, you'd better get used to it!
Living life as a fake just isn't in the cards for you.
So open up your arms and embrace what life throws your way — especially if it happens to be the man of your dreams!

http://web.tickle.com/rd/51292/tests/heartorhead/index.jsp?testname=heartorheadogt&resultid=B

My Movie Double

2006-07-10T16:24:00.000+08:00

Kat, your movie star double is Angelina Jolie

A wild child like you needs to be played by someone who's not afraid to live life on the edge, someone who doesn't mind bending the rules a little when necessary, someone like Angelina Jolie.
While you may not be the kind of person to tattoo your true love's name on your body, we still think Angelina would perfectly capture your adventurous attitude toward life.
Back in high school, were you the one harassing the substitute teacher and freaking out your folks by driving too fast? Well, even if you weren't climbing out your bedroom window and into a carfull of your pals late at night, you probably had your own ways of pushing the envelope and making adults turn gray before their time.
Like Angelina, you probably still like playing hard, that's the way you can really experience life. Leave the armchairs for other people.
You, like your movie star double, prefer an edge that makes you feel alive.
Angelina never apologizes for the decisions she's made, probably because they've been right for her regardless of what others say. Sound familiar?

Yes wor, mostly quite true...

http://web.tickle.com/tests/stardouble/

My New Guy

2006-07-05T18:32:00.000+08:00

I shall dedicate this entry for a special person...

HE - makes me smile and laugh heartily
HE - talks a great deal of sense for someone his age (when he wants to)
HE - takes the time to listen and talk when something is bothering me
HE - irritates me to the max on one hand, and yet can be so sweet and doting in his own ways on the other
HE- makes me love and hate him at the same time
HE - eats ALOT, talks ALOT and looks DAMM cute when he's sleeping (hugging MY green little turtle)
HE - tells me every (well, almost) little things that happens to him in a day (OVER and OVER again sometimes...hahaha...)
HE - loves to nag at the things I do, as well the things I dun do (but thatz alright with me)
HE- is MUCH younger than me, but says I am like a small girl (well, I am HIS small girl...awww...)
HE - doesn't have much, doesn't gives much but remembers that I like purple, am always wearing blacks and sends me around (if his car has petrol), no matter how little sleep he has the night before
HE - has alot of nonsense, but have no complaints abt my nonsense (but well, at least not yet), which is nothing less than his
HE - is my boyfriend
HE - is the one that matters now...

Muacks, baby!

We are the Almighty 38z....hehehe

2006-07-05T14:31:00.000+08:00

Aiya, me slow lor... the whole town have already publicised our darling Dia's birthday celebration...so I shall save my time typing.... kekeke (how LAZY can I get!) :P

Pictures speak a thousand words ~~~

Smile....

Take 1...2...3...

Smooches....

Always ready to face the camera(s), ya, like Super Idols, every outing will have 2/3 cameras on hand....

These people are fantastic!

YAY! Full Attendance, I am 38z no. 1

I love all my 38z....

My Superfate

2006-07-04T13:34:00.000+08:00

Your sign is Star in Chinese Horoscope

◎Your life is represented by the stars in the night and always the focus of attention, but starlight might sometimes be covered by the dark cloud. You like wise and trustworthy people. You are smart, enthusiastic, well-behaved and a quick learner, however your enthusiasm usually doesn't last long.

◎Your characteristics, subconscious, and behavior modes, according to your fate and destiny, are represented by the stars, not only delicate, yet with femininity. There are many stars in the sky, but not as bright as the sun and moon, so you do not like to show off. You do not like to make decisions and often wait for the opportunities to come to you. You are born intelligent and clever, but cannot quite stick to what you do. You have short-lived enthusiasm, are interested in many things, but lack the determination and perseverance to carry it through. In addition, you show a very strong and obvious reaction between love and hate, and willing to sacrifice for one and totally block out the other. You like mature and dependable persons, dislike frivolous behavior, and admire people with artistic talent and those who can enrich your spirit. Your entire life is like the stars, stable, secure, and without uncertainties. You are most afraid to be covered by the dark cloud that reflects the down time of your life, during which you may be unappreciated, unaccepted, and face many unexpected obstacles. Although very painful, as long as you face these challenges, learn from others and do not complain or blame others, you will learn and grow, and then become the brightest star in the sky.

◎Health Analysis: The function of your nephridium water system is weaker.
◎According to your destiny analysis, the function of your nephridium water system is weaker. Your physical strength is not as good as others, and you always feel tired and have cold hands and feet in the winter. You have had no major problems when you were young, but over age 40, additional care of your nephridium water system is needed, or it may easily lead to blood pressure, anemia, heart problems and unsmooth periods, or even insomnia, accidie, cranial nerve anemic, hearing problems, kidney problems, urocystitis, urethrits, gynecologic problem, heart and blood vessel problems. Therefore, you should avoid fatigue, maintain a stable and regular lifestyle and schedule, and sleep and wake early in order to protect a congenitally weaker nephridium water system system. Also avoid iced and cold drinks and reduce the frequency of sexual activities in order to maintain good vitality.There's a saying that all disease starts from the mouth, which means many human diseases are related to food. According to Traditional Chinese Medicine, food can be divided into gold, wood, water, fire and earth (concept of the five elements). You seem to prefer the salty flavors, especially in seasonings, which means your cells are filled with too much water element. This negatively affects your health, fortune and career, so we suggest you try different foods to balance your diet and nutrition, which leads to harmony in life and a balance of yin and yang based on the five elements. In addition, if you have recently felt unlucky or things were not going smoothly, then you are probably affected by bad spirit, which caused bad luck. The best solution is not to eat meat and fish for a period of time until the bad spirit goes away. The bad spirit tends to stay with those who eat meat and fish, and also chicken, duck, green onion, garlic, leek and other spices, so a vegetarian diet can help change your luck.

◎Health Analysis: The function of your respiratory system is weaker as well.
◎The function of your respiratory system is weaker as well, and you have had minor problems like allergies, runny nose, cough, cold, chest pain, diarrhea and constipation when you were young. But over age 40, additional care of your respiratory system is needed, or it may lead to nasosinutisis, asthma, bronchopneumonia, bronchitis, intestines polyp and proctitis. Therefore, you should avoid fatigue and smoking, maintain a stable, regular lifestyle and schedule, and sleep and wake early in order to protect a congenitally weaker respiratory system. According to your destiny analysis, your working and living environment tends to be a bit messy and without good air circulation, which is not good for your respiratory system. You tend to be anxious, lack patience and tolerance, which means you don't get along well with friends. If you want to change your fate and destiny, breath deeply for five minutes per day, maintain good air circulation, and open a window or door in your room. As long as you have sufficient oxygen in your body, your destiny will be completely changed with better health, more wealth and happiness coming into your life.

◎In your relationship, you are mutually loving and respectful of each other. Your love is full of romance and happiness. Your future partner will also help you with financial management, and contribute fortune and wealth as he has the luck to help his wife.

◎In romance, according to our analysis, men usually like you at first sight. If they win your heart, a romance develops quickly, but doesn't last long because it's difficult to maintain the same level of passion from beginning to end. Generally speaking, you make a good first impression because you are charming and capable, but over time your passion is replaced by arguments. You are often admired, but are not satisfied with what you have, and your romantic partner may be very sticky if you want to break up. Therefore, if you are still waiting for a good romance, try to conceal your outer beauty in order to find more sincere and suitable lovers who aren't just attracted to your looks. Then true romance will come your way. In the journey of life, your romantic or marriage partner is not easily found by love at first sight. You need to spend time together and interact in a neutral setting before the possibility of love. The relationship might start from working together, and time spent together planning or meeting regularly. You tend to concentrate and focus on career and work, so you may marry later in life. If you are still seeking your love partner, among those around you, someone who has a deep understanding and strong ability might be the one. As long as you sincerely give a little hint, the happiness is right beside you.

◎Career Analysis: Most of your jobs, in any industry, require some leadership and management skills, teamwork.
◎Most of your jobs, in any industry, require some leadership and management skills, teamwork; your career may also involve non-profit government organizations. For example, manager, general manager, high level management, plant manager, government or legal official, auditor, investigator, soldier, police officer, non-profit organization volunteer, etc. These types of jobs might not have the same professional training required for the corporate world, but will offer personal growth and teamwork challenges. If you choose these types of jobs, then your work will go smoothly, but you may lack the professional training for an executive position in the future. You should further strengthen your professional training because you have good management skills, but might not understand technical staff well enough or have a strong foundation for important decision-making. Jobs in other fields that require creativity or working independently are not suitable for you.

◎Wealth Analysis: You know how to make and save money, so you are seldom short of cash.
◎According to your destiny analysis, you know how to make and save money, so you are seldom short of cash. You knew the importance of the money since you were very young, so you started working earlier than others. Therefore, you were making money with investments while others were spending money and enjoying their lives. In addition, you were born very clever, and will not spend money if unnecessary, but when it comes to business investment, you are not stingy because you always wanted to be your own boss. You will be investing most of your wealth to establish your business. Afterwards, you will not bequest much to your descendants, instead you will donate money to a charity or hospital because you think your descendants gain wealth by working hard on their own.

Me IS Cheer Bear

2006-07-03T16:23:00.000+08:00

I am a Cheer Bear...

Happy, upbeat, with a never say die confidence...

Approach everything with a smile and an encouraging word....

What about you?

http://www.care-bears.com/CareBears/html/fungames/whichbear.html

What you should do 1st thing in the morning

2006-06-29T11:20:00.000+08:00

Do this 1st thing in the morning.... hehe... :p

Click on the link below; then type in your name... http://www.cse.unsw.edu.au/~geoffo/humour/flattery.html

For you, my dear

2006-06-24T23:54:00.000+08:00

A major leap forward, taking a chance with you
A heart grow fond, lost in the world of me and you

Happy I am, genuine smiles and laughter
Giving you all that I can offer

Scared I am, of heartbreak and tears
Hope you can, soothe my fears

Illusion or truth, only time will tell you say
A long lasting and loving relationship, I wish it'll come our way

For my soul is tired, going through the motions over and over again
For you my dear, somehow gives me the courage to feel and risk it all...again...

Happy Birthday to Mummy aka Ah Bu

2006-06-21T11:00:00.000+08:00

My Dearest Mum: D.O.B 20th June **** (women's age is a highly P & C number... :P)

Brought us up almost single-handedly, the centre magnet of our family, nv complaining abt me not helping with housework/sleeping long past lunch/lazy/seldom at home....

Sometimes I will snap at her for being naggy and saying stuff that I do not like to hear, but at the end of the day...

Mummy, I Love you! Happy Birthday! Muacks!

Happy Birthday My Val Val

2006-06-15T16:09:00.000+08:00

*shy grin* A very belated entry, really too lazy/busy to update anything here...
okok, this entry is for my darling 38 Valerie... ITZ HER BIRTHDAY (Yippee!!!) on 10th June, we went out to celebrate for her last wednesday, 7th June...

She ar...still very "pathetically" young, cute, pretty, cheerful, kind, noisy and very loved by all of us...She's kinda gg thru' a rough patch at the moment, but I am sure she'll walk out of all these and find her true happiness soon

Whatever will make you happy, dear, it'll make us happy too. Muacks!

Letz look at peektures, a fraction of them here only....

Her Birthday kiss from me...

All say I look different in this pic...different = prettier? Hahaha :P

3 makes a crowd...but we lurve crowds!

At Hooters, with Kasey

This Jap restaurant is where we continued eating after Hooters....eeee...horrigible big eater gals! See this Val changed into the dress me & Annie bought for her, so vain wor ~~